" Figuring out Me "

Hi Everyone!

Man oh man, its been a minute, but it feels good to be inspired artistically and just open to create again. It took me a while to grasp motherhood but I'm learning and growing everyday. So much has happened since I've last blogged. I mean, to be honest with you, I wasn't inspired at all. I was in a funk, pretty much the whole year. Ya know, I was just trying to get it together after having a baby. It was very difficult for me mentally. I needed to just step away for a moment and figure out what I wanted out of life as well as what made me happy. I had to figure out who the heck this new woman was. Right when you think you have all the answers, you realize you actually don't. Funny how that seems to always happen lol. For the moms out there who are maybe going through an identity crisis and maybe uncomfortable in their own skin I am here to encourage you to hang on tight! Just know that whatever you're going through, in your journey, is always going to be ok. Don't go against the grain as I did for so long, embrace change. Keeping in the forefront of your mind that through every struggle a blessing is sure to come up! I have been creating some amazing things and I have to say it feels great but is also a little tough at times because I have the baby. Happy to be back and anxious to inspire those around me ! I'm not letting anything get in my way and even if you don't have a child, I encourage you to have the same attitude. 

On this day, Peace and I decided we wanted to do a photo shoot at this cool temple in Malibu,California , sadly it was closed :( Being the optimistic person I am, I decided to stop at the beach on the way back to the city! Peace has never been and I was so anxious to see her reaction to the sand, water, and animals! Malibu is a great beach, very clean, I always see dolphins and wales which is the reason a sista only dips her feet in lol! I was wearing my super cool pants from Durban, South Africa that had a zipper in the front like a built in fanny pack! Love love these pants!  Peace was dressed in her cute little  dress from Mexico ( Thanks Tìo Ralph) we were all cultured lol! Being that I have been traveling a lot for work, I like to buy really cool clothes for Peace and I, I'm thinking about making a memory box for her filled with all the shirts I buy her from each city/state/country ! I've always wanted to travel so its a treat for me to be able to bring stuff back!!!! Enjoy our beach moment and thanks for visiting :) 

Photography By : Chris Paul Thompson

Wisdom Wednesday : Don't Let Anyone Tell you that you CAN'T !!!

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Xoxo - Fee

Why are you getting me vaccinated mommy?

One of the hardest decision was deciding to get Peace vaccinated or not. I would go back and fourth within my thoughts like a ping pong ball trying to make the "right" decision.  "What if I vaccinate her and something goes wrong?" or "What if everything goes completely right?" So many questions going through my brain it was overwhelming. 

As a parent, all we want to do is try and make the right choices for our children. We want to  be perfect in an imperfect world. Realistically there is no such thing. The night before me taking Peace to her doctors appointment, I researched until about 4am. During my pregnancy I spoke to my OBGYN about her opinion as well as other moms that I trusted. One thing I noticed is some mothers force their opinion on you. Most with a one sided answer which isn't easy on new moms trying to make a hard decision.  Other kids and people do carry around sicknesses that can lead to death being that our babies are so small. I didn't want to take that risk. I also didn't want to deal with schools having an issue because she wasn't vaccinated. I went with what felt right and what spoke to me. 

I decided to go through with the vaccinations. I made the decision off of faith and intuition. Everyone will give you their opinion but at the end of the day it comes down to your decision. Its your child and you have to learn to listen to your decrement within. I am an organic advocate lol. Peace uses organic EVERYTHING and I have no problem with being the OCD mom. I went through with the vaccines because I wasn't willing to have my child be exposed to the risks of not having her vaccinated (sickness etc.) It doesn't make sense to me to inject a fresh human body with chemicals but when you add the fact that the world DOES have diseases and sicknesses floating around, you might look at it differently. 

When its all said and done, pray, ask those whom you trust for their opinion, talk to a doctor and weight out the pros and cons. FAITH is what had me move forward with my decision and Peace is as healthy and happy as can be!

P.S

I don't believe in giving her OR myself the flu shot and I do believe in spreading out vaccines so it doesn't overwhelm their little bodies. 

Peace & Blessings

XoXo- Fee La Tour 

Belly Buds Product Review :)

Baby & Fee is a new edition to the FeeLove Blog . You will be seeing tips for soon to be mommies like myself . I will be sharing my journey with balancing my career as well as becoming a mother .

My first baby product review are the Belly Buds !!  These things are super cool ! You can play your growing baby audio from voice recordings , books , and music . They say your baby starts learning in the womb so why not start now ? I received these little gems in the mail and I am addicted ! I hope my baby is loving them as much as I am ! I want her to be advance , well equipped , while enjoying her " growing party " in my belly . When running errands or working , I can play her some music and she can jam out . I thought this invention was really cool ! I also really like the fact that they aren't like headphones wrapped round my belly and no matter how big I get , she can still get her tunes played to her while mommy is comfy .

I am excited to share this part of my journey . It is a big step for me to share because it is very close to my heart but I figured I can inspire young moms like myself to have fun with it and keep dream chasing while still being an amazing mother :) 

Enjoy ! Peace & Blessings

                                                                                                        Xoxo- Fee La Tour 

Sugar coat for what ?

 I use to have a problem with speaking my mind for a very long time . Scared of what others would think I would hold in how I felt very often . Recently , I am around people who speak their mind and say to the left with " sugar coating " reality . I would always try and be considerate of others feelings without thinking about my own . Thats when I had it backwards. You don't have to be rude but you do have to think about your happiness when always being the " yes man ." Why do we put other peoples feelings above our own ? In life we must use the term "balance " more than ever . If you can't do something than say so . If you don't agree with something just say so . Don't sugar coat anything for anyone . You have to do what makes you happy . Be real , ALWAYS . Stand for what you believe in and remember to always stay respectful .

Xoxo - Fee La Tour

#FeeLove #PositiveVibesOnly 

Being In Tune With Yourself -

I've been through a really interesting journey this far in my life . I am really young but have been through enough to say I can understand spirituality , the universe and my creator . With that being said , the best part of life I believe is growing . Ahh scary sometimes right ? It is , I can't lie . Scary is a good thing and scary is also an illusion your mind creates because of the unknown fact of " whats going to happen ." Being led in the dark is nerve wrecking , or is it ? Is this something we are creating ourselves in our own minds ? Yep , we are creating it just like we do everything else . For a second just realize where you are in this present moment . Accept it for what it is. Realize that you are exactly where you need to be at this moment in time of your life . Don't let your thoughts take you to a place of  " lack of . " Be so intune with yourself that you are comfortable with the present moment . Don't forget , it is a present because it is the now . Let your spirit be free and tell your ego to take a seat . The ego likes to be controling aka " the bully ." The spirit is the sweet one that should be leading you . As humans we don't allow the spirit to take control because we live in a society where it is the opposite . Free yourself and be happy ! Today ! Its your choice . Always was and always will be!  Get in tune and live your freedom ! 

Peace & Blessings 

Xoxo- Fee La Tour