We are almost to our 3 month mark with baby Peace and I have to admit, she's the BEST thing that has ever happen to me! She will be 12 weeks on Christmas and time is flyinggggg by. It makes no sense how quickly they grow.
Being a mom has opened my eyes so much. I am able to be a teacher and a student, I am able to know what unconditional love is, I am able to see someone smile for absolutely no reason at all. You get so excited about the littlest things i.e.: "OMG she smiled!" or "She rolled over!" It takes everything back to its simplest form and its such a blessing to be apart of learning some new tools all over again.
My work life is going pretty good. I honestly don't have an OFF button when it comes to work so I went back only 3 weeks after having Peace. Now that I am 12 weeks into being a mom, I am going to try and ease up a bit on work. I am realizing the importance of allowing my body to heal (mentally, spiritually, physically) properly takes time. It took 9 months to create this little person and I had to be told 1,000 times "take it easy Fee!' I recently had a really big emotional breakdown just from being overwhelmed and I pulled the plug finally telling myself to rest.
A lot of moms to be ask me "did you go through that postpartum depression thing?" HA! Ya damn right I did. It isn't fun. I still notice myself having moments of feeling down and weary but I make sure I deal with those emotions and vent to someone I know loves me. It isn't an easy thing. Your body is trying to figure out how to be "normal" again. Just like my mother-in-law tells me "don't be so hard on yourself, your body needs time."
Peace is my little best friend, I am so thankful for her! She gives me a hunger and fire within that nobody else could have ever done. She has like magical powers of me lol, I am sooooo in love!!! She goes everywhere with me and just keeps me on my toes. She lovesssss people and loves to smile. She just learned how to get peoples attention by her oohhh's & Ahhhh's its amazing!
I can now say I know what a mothers love feels like. Its been 12 weeks and everything still seems so surreal. I love the good, bad, and ugly because who would I really be if it was only always good. For the parents who aren't in your children's life, let me be the first to tell you, YOU ARE CRAZY! Don't let another day slip away without being with your little one. Nurture them like you would a plant, feed them, love them, read them. Its a beautiful thing and I am so excited to see what this next 12 weeks brings!
Peace & Blessings
Xoxo- Fee
Mommy love you Peace-Marie <3
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